About learning how to walk and how to not give a f*&k (Spoiler alert: don’t know the answer to that)
Sometimes, beauty and inspiration can be found in the most unexpected moments. Like the way someone pours coffee into a cup, a special shade of light, the first notes of a song you never heard before or the dumpster in the backyard. And sometimes, that unexpected inspiration can lead to even more unexpected outcomes – provided that you take on the challenge to a. take them in with an open mind and b. transform them into action (the point of failure for me most of the time). However, these words are exactly such an outcome.
I always knew that I needed to put my work and myself out there somehow at some point. But whenever I come across a person who does exactly that, someone else judging and rolling their eyes is never far away. This is scary. (That doesn’t mean I’m never judging others. Everyone does it.) Whenever you stop caring what these people think of you – this is when the magic happens. When you figure out how to do that, please let me know. But there’s one thing that actually helps. It’s old but it’s still valid: „Fake it ’till you make it.“ I tell myself and others that I don’t care until I believe it myself – and today’s the day! (Maybe that’s a lie, I’m not sure.) If you are more scared of not doing something than of actually doing it, you’ll probably have to get over yourself and do the thing. Or be ready to deal with a lot of ‘What if’-s in your life. And I dare you to name something that is scarier than a ‘what if’.
There’s magic to new beginnings and the moment you decide to commit to something new while you have no idea what you’re doing. And you don’t even have to sign up for a macramé-course to get that feeling (even though that is totally an option). Sometimes, watching others have those experiences can be just as beautiful. A few hours ago in a café, I was watching a small child taking its first steps accompanied by David Bowie’s Absolute Beginners. (Yes, I swear to Bowie that this happened and yes, the parents noticed and yes, they lost it.) The next thing that happened was, of course, that the child stumbled. Did this make the previous accomplishment less worthy or beautiful? On the contrary!
So basically, if you’re annoyed or don’t like this article, blame that little tot. I think what I’m trying to say is: you never know who needed exactly you doing something the way only you can do it to get their own stuff done and succeed. „If I fly, moon dust will cover me.“ The lyrics of Hallo Spaceboy (to stick to the Bowie theme) imply everything that’s beautiful about new beginnings: hope, uncertainty, the sense that something life-changing might be about to happen. And, in the end, if you fall, there’s still the dust. So who cares anyway. Fail spectacularly!
Lastly, and I promise that this is the last Bowie quote: „Let all the children boogie.“ So here’s to being an amateur and, moreover, an absolute beginner – something we should never stop being in a world where so many people seem to have it all figured out. (They haven’t)
Mentioned and Quoted:
Absolute Beginners by David Bowie
Hallo Spaceboy by David Bowie
Starman by David Bowie
Show your work by Austin Kleon
Don’t Read This Book by Donald Roos
A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf